From a young age I always questioned my identity, when I was 13 I discovered the internet and read about others like me, when I was 14 I wanted to transition but was scared of changing my mind when it was too late, when I was 16 I had felt it had been long enough for me to solidify my feelings and figured I would come out by the end of highschool and begin the process by the time I was 18, when I was almost 17 I fell into a deep depression and dropped out of school and life (mostly driven by dysphoria and the fear that my family would reject me if I came out, that i I had waited too long already and would never be able to fully transition, that I would never be a biological female etc). Now at age 20 I’m re-joining society and starting community college and I know I’m nearing the point where it will be too late but I cant shake the feeling that my family will disown me and/or society will reject me or even lump me in a pile of bandwagoners that transition because it’s trendy. I need the support of my family while I’m in college but because I started it so late chances are I wont be able to come out for a few more years down the line, putting me dangerously close to “too-late” territory, which then raises the eyebrows of people who question me and call me insane lol whatever i forget what reddit post this was for i hate this and i hate how long ive waited and i hate that a year from now ill be thinking the same stuff but not doing anything about it until its too late like i always do aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
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